class week

9-01-08
I feel like I have no words for the situations that I am in. I want this or that, or feel this way or that way and I am dying to express myself, but I can't learn fast enough. I guess it's foolish, but before coming I figured I would just learn magically. I didn't think I would need to study as much because I have the mentality learning by doing. I spoke to my señora today and I couldn't ask her what I wanted. I barely get by with the present tense. It's all driving me nuts. On top of all this, I wore boots the first day to class and did about 5-6 miles of walking. The balls of each foot are blood blisters that hurt extremely when I walk. I took the bus today which took much longer to get home and I was late to lunch. My señora was by herself at the table all finished when i walked in. Part of me hates having a family because I am expected to be here at a certain time and it's so hard to make friends and do what I want when I have these obligations. So far I don't really like being part of a family because they are not like mine at all. One is enough. Furthermore, I miss my parents so much more than I ever do in the states. Last night I spoke with them for the first time with a webcam and cried at the cafe. I couldn't stop for some reason. I don't want to be a baby but I feel alone and stupid.

10-01-08
Today has been a lot better. Last night we went on a bar crawl to four different places. We ate a lot of tapas, popular appetizers in Spain. Granada is known for free tapas with drinks. They may be small, but they are huge plates. The cheapest drink I had all night was a beer for 1.80 euros (about 3 ish dollars) and the most expensive was 2.20 euros. I love this place! The first place we went was crowded but not packed, the second was packed with Americans and cigarettes. The last place was the best, me and another girl Alicia, talked with two Spanish guys and we talked about cooking and communication. They explained to us the difference in ham here. Spain is huge on their ham! Today I had class again for four hours and it went well. I met a French guy in my class and I think I like him! Haha, time will tell. Tonight we are hitting up the bars and discotecas again! The nightlife is really where it is at. My senora today told me that she doesn't want me to have visitors in the house. Something else to make me feel not at home! Oh well, that is why I love to go out!